I've had three deaths in the past month. One a friend, one an uncle, and one person who I did not get along with.

Tags: journal & companion & funerals & poor little me & passing & uncle & friend & mother & caregiver & ugh-politics & mortality & pagan & tribal identity & nuturing the Earth & differences & share

They want to know why they should even consider your faith when their faith is absolutest.

Tags: journal & faith & justify & Christian & evangelical

Rain in my desert always makes me think.

Tags: rain & desert & borders & sandstone & sun & clouds & stone & sky & wind & sand & truths

Reading is a dying art, especially the way I do it.

Tags: music & Mom & paganism & ugh-politics & sketching & reading multiple things

It's the mix, it's the argument, it's the conflict that will give us some of our best new ideas.

Tags: ugh-politics & pagan & Christian & all or nothing & borders & magick & miracles

It's snowing right now.

Tags: journal & snow & Raven & breakfast & dawn & Phoenix & Arkansas & Flagstaff & North Rim & hot chocolate

I'd stop blogging for a while, but I think that's one thing keeping me going.

Tags: Pagan & news & depression & toxic

I got to do the internet frustration thing again.

Tags: journal & insomnia & internet & mom & sex rules & Sparkpoint & Spring

I need a break from the nonsense.

Tags: journal & hermit & sunrise & breeze & birdsong & nonsense

I'd rather talk about the pagan stuff.

Tags: journal & ugh-politics & sunrise & Raven & grandfather & breakfast & Cycle & Moment & blueberries & weather & ancient agelessness

Sympathy is not part of my nature. Fellow-feeling is a gift that I have to work at, so I do. I consider it as restitution for the person I once was.

Tags: journal & Isaac Bonewits & morality & reddit & email & ABCDEF & sympathy & life ledger & measure of a man & secret of life & choice & consequences & fellow-feeling & restitution & more pagan than thou & abuse & manipulation & bastard & bitch & irredeemable sin & Christian

I'm not allowed to share her story while she still lives, but my mother was amazing.

Tags: mom & hidden thirteen & dealing with loss & journal & companion & passing & esoterica & Pagan Vigil & solstice & Dad & songs & maxims & sabbats & winter solstice

My time has not been my own.

Tags: mom & fireplace & vigil & companion & Christian & journal & dealing with loss

I'm doing things behind the scenes that you may not notice.

Tags: reformating & Im chat & mom & Christmas tree & sunrise & journal

I don't really do many holidays. It's a long story.

Tags: journal & Pagan Vigil & mom & hermit

Sometimes when you're feeling down, one of the best things you can do is do for others.

Tags: mom & eggnog French toast & yard

It's hard to find energy so I can do things.

Tags: insomnia & pest control & Raven & blueberries & raspberries

Still, I missed some things.

Tags: companion & The Lament & clean up the code & clean house & yard & dealing with loss

Lately when my articles have been good enough, I've experimented with posting links at reddit. The response has been a little mixed.

Tags: paganism & thinking & companion & Redmark & garden & mom & journal

So I've learned to do small pleasures.

Tags: Harvestpoint & semi-hermit & body language & small groups & large groups & Summergate & Wintergate & hair of the bear & recipies & calendars & lexicon & Raven & blueberries & journal & wheel of the year & solar year

I think I'm spending more time trying to sleep than actually sleeping.

Tags: insomnia & companion & play & Mom & calendars & Evernote & digital binder & Pangere

As something suitable for the ages, the websites work as they are. As something that I can update and tweak, I need programs to manage.

Tags: Mom & caregiver & pagan Vigil & webmaster & Gallup & companion & slice of life & ugh-politics & garden & journal

Yes, sometimes you can taste the Moonlight in the predawn. It's full of promise and hope and wonder, with the ever so slight tartness of regret.

Tags: Thursday & dawn & Wednesday & rain showers & Moon & malachite bear pendant & fun & Sage of Greater Pagan Wisdom & slice of life & Pagan & quotes & picture & maxims & false modesty & service of truth & creative & tweaking & passions & positive & Wildman & journal

My high desert has been absolutely gorgeous.

Tags: journal & moonbathing & Mom & caregiver & high desert & sky & Earth & tomato & sharing & the Gardener & companion & homemade peach ice cream & pendants

I'm typing this on my patio and one of my neighbor's pigeons is giving me the eye.

Tags: Mom & the Gardener & yard & flowers & apple trees & worms & grandfather & pigeon & ravens & journal

I love watching ladies sunbathing in the summer. It's purely sexual.

Tags: sunbathing & wondering & climax & philosophy & Divine & notebook & share & Pagan Vigil & Isaiah's Job & companion & garden & tomato & spinach & zucchini & journal

Last night I wrapped myself in the blanket and spent a long time watching the flames in my small fire.

Tags: ecology & global warming & climate change & fire & garden & ugh-politics & journal & wheel of the year & solar year

In a little while I am going to go plant my tree. I can't get away this weekend so I am starting Summergate a little early.

Tags: Court of Shadows & trees & Summergate & pendants & Mom & caregiver & Raven & family & journal & wheel of the year & solar eclipse & Fire Festivals

I didn't plan to become a pagan sex advisor on ethics, but looking at my writings on sex, that's exactly what I have become.

Tags: journal & companion & sex scandal & Kenny Klein & ethics & in your face paganism & Adam The Woo & slice of life & mask & hair of the bear & Mom & caregiver & Bear & Coyote & Raven & Dan Flores

I've been up all night with the sound of the night in my ears. Also aroused. And no companion around.

Tags: ritual bath & moonbathing & Moon & sunrise & bright moon & calendars & Pagan Vigil & journal

This week I got back into my discipline.

Tags: calendars & blood magick & discipline & journal & Scott Cunningham & Donald Kraig & dark moon & Court of Shadows & compost pile & companion & sky calendar & lore calendar & wyrd calendar & Mom & caregiver

I am keeping the baseball hats though…

Tags: companion & trauma drama & paganism & Mom & caregiver & recovery & teknologi & IPhone & Spring & spring cleaning & tweaking & journal

I can let it warp my life, or I can do the thing I decided years ago.

Tags: sunrise & ugh-politics & pagan community & calendars

The best thing I can do is find a way to channel the passion.

Tags: Bright & Dark Blessings & webmaster & creative & trauma drama & design & Pagan Vigil Reader & journal

No, it wasn’t responsible. No, I’m not proud of it. And yes, it lasted longer than it should have with me.

Tags: monogamous & picture & sex rules & people cherish their passions & pillow talk problem & trust & collecting pelts & statuary & nudity & naked

It’s one of the few sexual labels that I bother with. It’s not that I disapprove of labels like gay, lesbian, transgender, and all the others. It’s just hard to see how the label applies to me unless we have sex.

Tags: eros & polyamorous & polyamory & dark & early & companion & Christianity & sensualist & polygamous & Corporate Clone & collecting pelts & Christian & video & Forbidden & orgasm & sex rules

I am a sensualist. I’m telling you this because all too often pagans forget we’re supposed to bridge worlds.

Tags: senses & ritual magick & Asperger syndrome & candle & Robot & Coyote & Raven & sensualist & garden

Separation of faith and politics

Tags: meditation & us vs. them & pagan community & emotional vs. rational & ugh-politics & J1W & pullback & Christian & Christian bash & Christianity

Look around and see the wonders

Tags: tools & world song & Christianity & clean sheets & hot running water & Arduino & Age of Wonders & Spark of Inspiration

Beware the Egos

Tags: character & leadership & Joseph Campbell & Spiderman & Fantastic Four & Doctor Strange & Big Name Pagan & Divine & effective & dishonor

Still here sorta

Tags: 3rd Yearnings

❝On stage I make love to twenty-five thousand people; and then I go home alone.❞
     — Janis Joplin

Tags: 3rd Yearnings & Asperger syndrome & mask & Robot & companion & nudity & wisdom & alone & make love & on stage & Janis Joplin

Be - updated

Tags: 3rd Yearnings & labels & classic & cross-wired brain & Pagan & polytheistic & Nature & technology & manifest & Wiccan & Other & fringe element & Western Civilization & individual & ugh-politics & True Believer™ & libertarian & GLBT & Bruce Lee & water